Survivor Massacheusetts: Hers is the only vote that counts.

I have never been a fan of reality shows, save for maybe the occasional episode of "The Amazing Race." I have found these shows to be trite, whinny, and about as far removed from reality as possible. Any time you have cameras turned on you, reality tends to go out the window. There is always an element of "acting" that goes on, whether intended or not.

Real life however, doesn't allow for voting on one's survival. About the only similarity is that it can take a team effort to achieve a desired goal, or reward. This brings us to Claudia over at Dragonfly Dreaming. She has been given a challenge: A large lump was found in her breast the other day. The team she will be working with has only one goal in mind; keeping her alive.

Claudia is a survivor. She has survived cervical cancer. She has survived the death of her sister. She has survived an abusive past marriage. This is another obstacle that has been placed in her path, and she will need all the support possible to help her get through it.

Did I mention that she is also one hell of a writer? She is a very open person, and while she wears her emotions on her sleeve, she never smears them. Claudia carries enough love in her soul for 10 people, and her bawdy sense of humor is something that makes me love bantering with her. She loves her kids, her husband, her dogs, and her friends. She is passionate and erotic. She gives so much to others. It's time we gave back to her.

She is a survivor. I don't want her voted off the island.

Oh, and she's got great legs. I know, I've seen the pictures. *wink at Claudia*

So, please take some time out of your day, click on the highlighted Dragonfly Dreaming link above, and leave a message of support for Claudia. Tell her I sent you. Tell her she will beat this, or we will be forced to beat her. ;-)

I am NOT a morning person!

One of the yearly rituals that I undertake is a visit to the transplant clinic to let them poke, prod, and give me the the general once over. It's a bit like taking your car in for a yearly overhaul, though in this case it involves an early morning start, like at 7 am. This wouldn't be so terrible, except for the fact that I get out of work at 3 am. Yes, I do telecommute, but it's still oh-dark-thirty, which means that going to the lab to get bloods drawn before the actual clinic appointment was going to be an effort. Oh, I should clarify. I need to be at the lab by 7 am so that the test results will be at the clinic by 9 am.

So, I get out of work Wed. at the appointed hour, and I can't get to sleep. Nothing. Nada. 3:45 am rolls around, and I am finally getting sleepy. I'm thinking, "This is going to be fun. I'll probably fall asleep while they're putting the needle in my arm." I make an executive decision, and opt for more sleep. They'll have to deal with the the possibility of the results not being ready when I get to the clinic.

I wind up at the lab at 8 am, wait about 20 min to be seen. A good looking blond phlebotomist does that voodoo that she do so well, and then I grab a bagel and coffee at the stand in the hospital lobby. The clinic itself is actually part of the University of Rochester Medical Center, where my transplant center is. All my bloodwork needs to be done as a fasting one, especially now since I was diagnosed with diabetes last year from the long-term use of my transplant meds. Food in hand, I amble up to the clinic waiting area, along with a Stephen King book that a friend lent to me. It is 'Different Seasons," the series of novellas that he wrote that includes "The Shawshank Redemption." Now, if you live here in the States, and get TBS on your cable or satellite system, you know that the movie version of this is played endlessly. Seriously, I am surprised that no one has simply started a Stephen King Channel, all Shawshank, all the time.

I wanted to read the original version, as with most books, they are usually better than the adaptations for movies. The movie itself I have only seen in bits and pieces. I know this is going to be a long haul, and since it is a novella, only just over a hundred pages, I figure I could get a good hunk of it in before I get seen. It was a good choice. I arrived at the clinic promptly at 9 am, and settled into the waiting area.

Thursday's are for the post-transplant people like myself, with Tuesday's being reserved for the pre-transplants. They are the ones who are just being evaluated, or already accepted as transplant candidates and are being followed by the team. Us post-transplants, with the exceptions of the ones that are fresh out of transplant, generally don't take as much time being seen. People like me who are far out, (not in a hippy-dippy weatherman sort of way) usually take even less time. Still, I didn't get called in until close to 10:30.

In many ways, I am glad that they made this change some years ago, making the pre-, and post transplant people go on different days. It was sometimes difficult prior to that, when we would all go on the same days. Looking into the eyes of those pre-transplant folks, the desperation on their faces and those of the relatives that brought them brought back some difficult memories. Of course, at the same time, when they would ask me if I already had my transplant, and I would say yes, that got their attention. When I would tell them how long ago I had the operation, there would be this look of astonishment, then followed by the peppering of questions. They were scared, and rightfully so. However, I would always ask the patients one quesion:

"What are you prepared to do?"

The sad fact is that while a tranplant can save their lives, they have to be willing to accept certain things, and understand that the idea of a "normal life" is going to change forever.

So, they call my name, I get weighed and have my vitals taken. All good. then I wait again for either the transplant surgeon or the nurse practitioner to see me. In this case, it is a nurse practitioner that I know well. All seems to be in order, and lo and behold, my bloodwork actually turned up. My liver numbers are slightly elevated, but they have been this way since my little stint in the hospital last year. They don't seem to be too concerned, as they have remained steady, have not spiked, and it is only some of the numbers that are up. The rest are right where they should be, my kidney function is perfect, and my blood sugar is right on the money.

I get a physical exam, and she comments on how well my scar healed over the years. We make some small talk about some people we both know, and then I am on my way. Come back in another year. I still get bloods drawn once per month to check liver functions, and the level of anti-rejection meds floating around inside of me. This is one of the trade-offs, and what I was referring to before about "a normal life."

Back to the car, and life goes on. Oh, the story was fantastic! I will Netflix the movie now, but the stroy was just so well written, as many (but not all) of his things are.

Catching my breath.....

I finally had time to do a little breathing after being very busy last week, taking care of the wife, cooking, cleaning, entertaining.....My niece and her boyfriend came in from Buffalo for a visit, and we had a good time. A little extra medication for the wife, and she actually enjoyed herself as well.

I am preparing some thoughts on Obama, the elections, and what is going to happen to this country in the coming years. While history may be replete with turning points and crossroads, I think it is fair to say there is a big one on the horizon come this November........